Big News all!! We have travel dates to go and pick up Thomas!!!! Even as I type this I just am so in awe. I’m so in awe that we are actually here, we are leaving in 2 days to go 6,000 miles to pick up our son that God has placed in our family. I’m so in awe to think of all the things the Lord has orchestrated to bring us to this point. Through trials of the homestudy, surgeries and sickness, job change and finances. The Lord has provided what was needed every single step. Thinking back two years ago I was sitting at an adoption retreat for adoptive and foster mommas. I was in the group titled something like “finding your direction” and I heard a momma say “If God calls you to it, He’ll see you through it.” That sweet little rhyme stuck to my heart and as we found our way on our road to adoption. I clung to this truth, knowing that the Lord was definitely faithful to provide what was needed, but I had never experienced Him in this way personally. And particularly in the realm of money. At this same retreat during worship I heard the Lord ask me to hand over the finances and the timeline of this journey. So I did that night. And had to again and again during the process, each time in a different way. Because I knew that I couldn’t come up with the money to approach adoption. And that I just wanted the road to be fast so we could keep our kids close in age. Through this journey the Lord allowed me to break. I again had to hand over the timeline, something I thought I had control over. He allowed me to see that this was HIS plan, not my own. Fast forward to the match with our sweet little Thomas. We know that God placed Him in our family, on purpose, and that he is to be ours, and we are to be his. And had it been MY timeline, he wasn’t even born when we would have been ready for a match!
Slowly I’m learning the value in surrendering to what the Lord has for me. The finances are so hard though! Dollars are finite! and the process is expensive! Through the times when I would be overwhelmed by this fact, the Lord would remind me that He was the one who owned the cattle on a thousand hills (Psalm 50:10). And that He is our Provider. And I still cannot get over how He uses His beautiful Church to minister to the needs of each other. Through friends and family and fundraisers and complete strangers and grants and anonymous donors God provided what was needed every time a payment came due. For each part of the process He laid it on someones heart to give, or worked miraculous things out in our budget. I want to say thank you to each of you who have supported us financially. Thank you for being obedient when God nudged you. Know that you are doing the big things, the most important things in life. Helping to bring home a child who is orphaned into a family who is SO excited to be his forever family. Allowing him to be a part of a Church that loves the Lord and loves caring for others and sharing their hope in Christ. So that ultimately Thomas has a chance at knowing his worth, that he is loved by his Creator and that he doesn’t have to journey this road of life alone.
This story of adoption that begins with brokenness, has the possibilities of a glorious redemption. Of love, of living through the difficulties with a Savior who promises to never leave.
We feel so utterly grateful to be able to journey this life with Thomas. We know that we aren’t perfect, we mess up plenty. But our prayer is that we could point him (along with Isabelle, Isaiah and Evelyn) to the One who IS perfect, the One who will never fail us.
As we approach the actual start of the journey for Thomas WITH us there is a lot of worry within my heart. His grieving, will we be able to comfort him? How can we help him? How do we do this sleep thing? His routine is very different from ours at home. And eating, we eat such different things! How will he attach to us? How will our bonding be with him? What will cocooning look like? How will each child’s relationship with each other go? etc etc….
And so with all of our story being layed out here in print, we are reminded that HE IS FAITHFUL. Lamentations says “Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness.” Sara Groves (my all time favorite artist) sings a song that resonates this verse and the hymn “Great is Thy faithfulness” and is called “He’s always been faithful.” Last night as I was listening I heard a new piece of it that became real to me. She sings
“This is my anthem, this is my song
The theme of the stories I’ve heard for so long
God has been faithful, He will be again
His loving compassion, it knows no end
All I have need of, His hand will provide
He’s always been faithful…”
The line God has been faithful, He will be again – gives me so much peace, and what a great reminder not only that He’s BEEN faithful, but He will be again! and that His compassion is never-ending. That every need that is present in this adoption journey and beyond He will provide. What a glorious God we serve.